I Have “That” Kid

September 6, 2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

I have “that” kid-the spirited one. The energetic one. The one that is constantly bouncing off the walls. I have the kid who makes always makes a scene at Target. The one who doesn’t believe in the word “no”. He just had his first day of Kindergarten where he opened the emergency exit on his […]

What A Difference 5 Years Makes

September 3, 2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

Today I sent my middle son off to Kindergarten. Him, the one I write about. The baby I fought for. I’m now in a very similar position to the one I was 5 years ago, but this time it’s very different. Five years ago, my oldest was in Preschool. After I would drop him off […]

I Cried In My Car Today

April 18, 2019.Reading time 6 minutes.

I cried in my car today, and now you know that the Target pharmacy bathroom isn’t the only place I lose it. The reason I cried today was ridiculous. I’m not downplaying my feelings here, the “straw that broke the camel’s back” in this case is completely comical. You see, it all started last night […]

What Healing From Postpartum OCD Looked Like (For Me)

January 29, 2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

I would say the #1 question I get asked about OCD is how I healed from it, but a close second is how I knew I was better. When you’re “in the trenches” it can be hard to recognize progress. One day can be amazing and the next can feel like a major setback. You […]

My Son Needs to See a Therapist, and I’m Taking it Kind of Hard

January 18, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

I haven’t written in a while because honestly, the past 6 months have been kind of hard. Not hard in an “OCD” way, but hard in a “life is fricken hard” way. I like for my posts to mostly revolve around my journey of OCD and how I beat it, but once OCD is gone, […]

Why I Write About Postpartum OCD

December 12, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

I write about OCD because I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t know that soul-crushing anxiety and scary as hell thoughts didn’t make me a monster. I didn’t realize that I could think scary things while simultaneously fighting against them. I didn’t know that OCD could hijack my mind and break my heart. I had […]

My #1 Fear Throughout OCD

November 7, 2018.Reading time 4 minutes.

The intrusive thoughts that came with OCD were traumatizing. They made me examine myself with a fine-tooth comb and caused me to question everything I had ever said, done, or thought. As hard as it was to have a constant stream of repulsive thoughts, there was one fear that haunted me above the rest…what […]