To My PMADS Mamas During Covid-19

March 22, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

Hey Mamas! This week has been so long and filled with so much uncertainty, I want to take a moment to reach out to any of you moms currently suffering with postpartum mood and anxiety disorders. You have all been heavy on my mind and my heart this week and I want to show my […]

I Have “That” Kid

September 6, 2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

I have “that” kid-the spirited one. The energetic one. The one that is constantly bouncing off the walls. I have the kid who makes always makes a scene at Target. The one who doesn’t believe in the word “no”. He just had his first day of Kindergarten where he opened the emergency exit on his […]

What A Difference 5 Years Makes

September 3, 2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

Today I sent my middle son off to Kindergarten. Him, the one I write about. The baby I fought for. I’m now in a very similar position to the one I was 5 years ago, but this time it’s very different. Five years ago, my oldest was in Preschool. After I would drop him off […]

I Cried In My Car Today

April 18, 2019.Reading time 6 minutes.

I cried in my car today, and now you know that the Target pharmacy bathroom isn’t the only place I lose it. The reason I cried today was ridiculous. I’m not downplaying my feelings here, the “straw that broke the camel’s back” in this case is completely comical. You see, it all started last night […]

What Healing From Postpartum OCD Looked Like (For Me)

January 29, 2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

I would say the #1 question I get asked about OCD is how I healed from it, but a close second is how I knew I was better. When you’re “in the trenches” it can be hard to recognize progress. One day can be amazing and the next can feel like a major setback. You […]

My Son Needs to See a Therapist, and I’m Taking it Kind of Hard

January 18, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

I haven’t written in a while because honestly, the past 6 months have been kind of hard. Not hard in an “OCD” way, but hard in a “life is fricken hard” way. I like for my posts to mostly revolve around my journey of OCD and how I beat it, but once OCD is gone, […]

Why I Write About Postpartum OCD

December 12, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

I write about OCD because I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t know that soul-crushing anxiety and scary as hell thoughts didn’t make me a monster. I didn’t realize that I could think scary things while simultaneously fighting against them. I didn’t know that OCD could hijack my mind and break my heart. I had […]

My #1 Fear Throughout OCD

November 7, 2018.Reading time 4 minutes.

The intrusive thoughts that came with OCD were traumatizing. They made me examine myself with a fine-tooth comb and caused me to question everything I had ever said, done, or thought. As hard as it was to have a constant stream of repulsive thoughts, there was one fear that haunted me above the rest…what […]

The Crushing Guilt of OCD

October 24, 2018.Reading time 8 minutes.

OCD gave me overwhelming guilt. I felt like I was walking around like a zombie, who acted like a mother. On the outside, I was happy-ish. For the short moments I would allow myself to be around strangers, I could (mostly) hold it together. But there were many times I stayed inside because I was […]

4 Ways to Protect Your Mind in a Triggering World

July 30, 2018.Reading time 10 minutes.

Our current world is a lot to handle for those who aren’t fighting mental illness, but when the weight of today’s reality is combined with the additional stress of mental illness, it can be overwhelming. I’ve never been more scared than when I was struggling with OCD and would see someone act on the same […]