The 1 Thing I Needed in Order to Let Go of My OCD

My OCD.My mental illness.My disorder.My greatest enemy.My constant companion. How could I let go of the thoughts? They were dangerous, out of control.I needed to control them, I needed to continue having them in order to make sure my kids were okay. At first, I kind of had the thoughts knowingly, consciously. I would read […]

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Happy Birthday to the Baby I Fought For

Three years ago on June 23, I was celebrating the birth of my second son, Easton. He’s been perfection since the start, his eyes sparkle and he is an amazing blend of his daddy and I. We were smitten, over the moon, but once the OCD set in my single greatest fear was this: how […]

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5 Small Comforts Amidst the Chaos of Postpartum OCD

Happy Spring (Summer?)I completely understand how frustrating it may be to follow a blogger who is MIA, and I’m sorry. January-May are the months every year where my family is in “survival mode.” My husband is home an average of 1 day a week and this was my first year with all 3. First, I want […]

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How Could This (OCD) Happen to Me?

I had him on purpose.I wanted him.I dreamt of him.I longed for him.I counted down until the minute he was born, and he came out perfect.His eyes a stunning blue.His skin pale olive.His lips perfection.He was calm, easy, sweet.He smelled like lavender and filled me with love, he made our family feel more complete.He was mine. And […]

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The Journey of Healing from OCD

Healing, such a small word for such a huge accomplishment. Healing starts with a moment. One moment in which you realize that you were able to focus on something other than OCD for just a second. That moment gives you a glimmer of hope. A glimmer of normalcy, a glimmer of what life can be again. That […]

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A Glimpse Inside My OCD Mind

Happy Thursday! So, I’ve been a little MIA lately because…parenting is hard! I wasn’t depressed or having anxiety/OCD, I was more run down and exhausted. I felt like my kids were being extra naughty and extra ungrateful  and it was soooo tiring. My husband has been home about 1 day a week for 2 months […]

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